Guess what? I’m not selling a danged thing here. Not my words, my thoughts, my past. What I am doing on this website is going over a rather lengthy past to make sense of how I got to where I am now. There is no good reason I should even be alive now and teh Good Lord knows that I have done all the right things, short of a gun to the head, to end my life. Even that almost happened and that is a good reason not to allow yourself to go into combat. What does a 21 year old know about killing? Not much but you do it anyway because that is your job.
You see what I mean? Life is convoluted in ways that’ll turn you gray before you’re sixty. Did me anyhow. However, I am not complaining about anything or any part of my life. I made the decisions so I live with them. Been married to the same wondrous lady for fifty years now. Three grown kids dong remarkably well given what I was back then.
Good thing is that I have spent a number of years figuring out how I made the good and bad decisions that affected other people. That is important if you care about being honest with yourself. Not many want to be honest with themselves but pride does truly come before the fall out of grace. Grace. A religious term that more people should consider. A state of grace must be sought for and that means throttling back yourself and your wacky penchants for being stupid. Stupid hurts others so consider how smart you are next time you decide to berate anyone but yourself.
That’s it for today. Tomorrow will be a different direction if I have a chance to write here tomorrow. You will find that I bring up stuff that you might not have thought about or thought of. I’m old, I’ve been dumber than a horses ass, and done stuff that would curdle your milk. Just another day in paradise, right?
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